have felt all of this!!! on the one hand, i do know how hard this has been for me, but on the other hand, when i consider my relatively low support needs and such, i feel like i don’t really have grounds to talk about it. like i’m in this weird gray space between “””normal””” and someone who “””actually””” has autism. (quotes because of course that’s a horrible framing, but so says the devil on my shoulder.)
As a fellow late-diagnosed autistic person, I get this. Also I have had this feeling in basically EVERY aspect of my life. “Oh, this teacher wants to hear questions from all of the kids - EXCEPT for me.” “Oh, this influencer wants comments and input from all of her subscribers - EXCEPT for me.” I’ve always felt like I was being annoying if I tried to include myself in things.
I’m not sure where exactly “EXCEPT for me” comes from in my life, but I’m the same way. It wasn’t just regarding joining the autism club for the reasons I wrote about. I could easily modify this post to be about how I felt at Cub Scouts meetings in kindergarten. Thanks for reading and sharing your thoughts—ESPECIALLY you.
Oh wow. Thank you. You expressed my main concern at this point, and my AQ was 37! Awaiting my report …
have felt all of this!!! on the one hand, i do know how hard this has been for me, but on the other hand, when i consider my relatively low support needs and such, i feel like i don’t really have grounds to talk about it. like i’m in this weird gray space between “””normal””” and someone who “””actually””” has autism. (quotes because of course that’s a horrible framing, but so says the devil on my shoulder.)
Feeling stuck between “normal” and “someone who has autism” is a great way to put it.
As a fellow late-diagnosed autistic person, I get this. Also I have had this feeling in basically EVERY aspect of my life. “Oh, this teacher wants to hear questions from all of the kids - EXCEPT for me.” “Oh, this influencer wants comments and input from all of her subscribers - EXCEPT for me.” I’ve always felt like I was being annoying if I tried to include myself in things.
I’m not sure where exactly “EXCEPT for me” comes from in my life, but I’m the same way. It wasn’t just regarding joining the autism club for the reasons I wrote about. I could easily modify this post to be about how I felt at Cub Scouts meetings in kindergarten. Thanks for reading and sharing your thoughts—ESPECIALLY you.